Sitting in my chair

Sitting in my chair I keep thinking about all the things I need and want to do. I keep thinking if this is the life I chose, and why am I here and not some place else. Why is it so difficult for me to mae a decision that could probably change my life? Am I to scared to turn my life around? Or am I just lazy about risking everything I have.I know I need to fly free, and let all the fresh air and happiness into my life. I know there is a big part of me missing, lost somewhere in this world, and that I need to go and find it. I need to live my life, not the life that others want and think is best for me.Shoud I just keep sitting in this chair because it is going to give my a bright future, or should I just leave this chair behind, and just fly away and live the present?Why is everything such a dliemma? Should all this so difficult? I keep wondering about how different my life could be... I am happy, but I feel that I could be even more happier...or am I wrong? Should we aim for more, or should we just be happy with what we have achieved by now, and keep living our routine, and have a life exactly the same as everyone you know?